Counting Hours to Thailand

I got a bit faint. Seems that I had a lack of sleeping hours. I was supposed to check everything regarding my upcoming travel instead of laying down in the bed, but I felt so tired. I need to sleeping but I can't close my eyes. So, I decided to write this in order to raise my energy and vitalize my spirit. However I can sleep later in the train tonight thou'. OMG, I just remember that I need to read my reading brick on the class of "Cross-Cultural Communication". Yeah, that's RIGHT. I need to. I want to be a BRIGHT SMART STUDENT! I need to.

I dont know why I really want to improve my reading capacity. I need to devote my time to study more, and more. I want to be academically expert. Yeah, first, I have to brush my brain, then fill my stomach. Yeah, I know, what I should do after writing this: taking a shower, praying Ashar, having an early dinner, checking up everything, finishing my very last packing, then reading the material from the class. Then, I will be waiting nicely for a ride who will pick me up and take me to Tugu Train Station.

Counting hours to Tugu, Jakarta, and Thailand. Bismillah.

My Peaceful Neighborhood:))

Actually, I took these pictures to exercise my new camera-pocket.

On today's hot weather, I stood up right in front of my kost to take these views..

left side view

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right in front of my kost :
those far in front of my kost are T-junction & elementary school
"SD Catur Tunggal"

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30 degree right :

'At-Taqwa Mosque'

my daily spiritual call

Magrib & Isya' jamaah prayer

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another right side :

mosque & top light

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Saturday Night with ..-ing

Start with testing..

my new modest camera-pocket, and trying various 'mode's to get a good captured of photoes. So that I can be a good friend of her, so I can take a very good care of her as much as I love her and remembering how much I love money that I spent to get her.

*I hope someday I can afford SLR- camera..

Then, I started to BLOG-ing

It's quite awesome. It's fun to curhating* my stories and putting some pictures on it. It's also a media for me to escape from Facebook.

I continued
by watching two films,
"The Invention of Lying" and "The Time Travelerer's Wife'

Next, I couldn't resist and finally came over to my facebook(again), and started stalking people around.
It's not just such a wasting activity, because afterword,
I found something, a life learned,
that..

"everyone has their own story and destiny"

so, make the best of YOURS!

ps. i am supposed to finish my PACKING, and start LISTING my 'a must' stuffs to bring for my upcoming travel.

Homy Comfy

HOME is where my heart and soul belongs to..

I found comfort and warmth in that place..

I feel love and peace in my every breath..

I escaped from my fear and desparation to search an ultimate strength in home

God guide me with my guardian angel, a pair of parent

who never let me down, and never let me go far from whom I truly belong to, the Almighty

when my heart being so emotional

It's getting so emotional..
I just can't help to blow it up on this blog.
It's burning inside, there a tears almost drop in her eyes, but she could handle it.
When she put a hope so high in the sky,
hoping that they are more friendly and contribute things
just for appreciation, in the name of fairness, quality, and equity
but hope remains disapointment

In her eyes, she knew that those who eloquently speaking is fake
They manipulate for their own interest in the sake of goodness
how come they laughed all the time applaused for their artful

Meanwhile, those who really need support, drawning hurtly
Those who dedicated their heart to be a part of their support
has accepted suffers from the new mechanism
world is indeed unfair,
I never realized it until I met her, today!
a small experience taught lot about this absurd fairnes

Somehow she told me this is manipulative world, full of manipulative beings.
Full of sly people who sell the tricky mouth to get things.
She also showed me not to easily trust people from their appearance.
Although they are really convincing!

Yeah, we indeed need to be cautious!!

Be grateful of your problem, it can be so enlightening in a proper framing

Four thousand rupiah meal
Please guess, what made me happier this evening?? You might didn't get it right. The answer is unpredictable, but that's true. It's because I only spent four thousands rupiah for affording my dinner meal. That really made me happy, especially after I realized that I had no cash money left on my pocket. Thank God. I feed myself for free today due to my official duty. After almost a quarter hour searching for money from everysingle part of my room, my bag, my jacket, and all part, finally I was able to collect five thousand and five hundred rupiahs. Then, I asked Mb. Minah, Ibu kost's maid whether my money enough or not for buying a food. She assured me so. So without any hesitation on 9 p.m. I went walk to buy nasi putih penyetan with a combination of tempe terong and sambel. I went home and reached my room with a wider smile.

Before eating, I prepared my drink by having a big glass of water. Ohh, wow. How great I feel. For the first time, I really enjoyed a glass of water with such a deep satisfaction. At that moment, I think that tempe-terong and sambal are much better than any gudeg, seafood, pizza, fried chicken, lasagna, and other delicious foods. The experience tonight made me realize that I have to be grateful for all I have although with a simple and moderate way. Be grateful, that I was still able to eat something today. Please imagine how many people out there who need to struggle for make a living, even for a bite of nasi. It's such a lesson learned for me that I need to be more thoughtful on managing my money.

I had been through this several last week with what most my friends said as 'hedonism'. Not in the real meaning, but just our interpretation in which we had overwhelmingly fun activities that mostly waste our money, energy, and time to have self-pleasure with a bunch of friends. And then, today I experienced something more, deeper, when I realized that I was lucky enough to have experienced various condition of life.

It' not merely about MONEY

I ever said on my previous blog that it's all about the money. I wrote that post when I am on the condition in the need of money. Money also made me a bit sad this afternoon, especially after realized that this week and the upcoming week I will have many expending budget. I thought and counted so much about it. There are many unpredictable condition that made me think twice, related to budget and many things need to be recognized as important ones. Even, I almost cancelled my gathering in Jakarta wih my ISFIT friends.

I always update my progress with parents, so do today. I almost cancelled all my agenda if it will create more budget. They didn't agree on that matter. All of sudden, I realize that I still have God, place where I have to fully-surrender. So when adzan Isya called me, I anwered the call by having Isya jamaah prayer in Masjid in front of kost, just like I did as usual. What a miracle. I felt lighter afterward, and more relieved. It' s getting much more relieved when I texted my parents talking about my condition, my wrong framing about my problem, and how should i be grateful with everything God given me. Then, my parent said,

"..., you don't need to be sad and overthinking about those stuffs because you still have your parents, dear. When you get home, we can fix the problem and provide what you need at the most"

OMG. That message gradually lighted up my evening. Then, I answered I was not sad anymore since I have a BIG God and BIG parents that I can count on. But the problem actually is due to my thinking that I want to be independent and not bother my parents anymore with this kinda annoying stuffs. But then, I also realized that they are there for me. That's why I really want to be home soon. Soon. I hope so. Soon :))

Today lesson learnt can be read on the title above. I bet you agree on that sentence.

ISFiT 2009 Anniversary

It's almost been a year since February 2009. We want to celebrate our togetherness. Chill out our yearning while remembering what happen on the previous year, especially on the month of February. International Student Festival in Trondheim 2009 united us together. On a lovely city, near the north pole called Trondheim we valued every single activity and experienced everyday's excitement in two weeks festival. Great lecturers, amazing workshop, new friendship, alternative peace-building, unforgettable festival would stand foremost in our life-mosaic.

We designed this rendezvous on the exact month when ISFiT was held a year ago. ISFiTers Go to Plaza Senayan, on Saturday 14 February 2o10. I myself get so excited to see my new friends, my ISFiT 2009 family, and my fellow Indonesian students (though some of them already graduated). I will come along way from Yogyakarta to Jakarta. I hope it will be a great anniversary celebration :)