I once decided to quit. I was so bored and weary with my routines. It was a complex combination of disappointment, confrontation and denial. Too much political hassle and unnecessary drama. I needed to move on and experience the different pace. I thought, a wider opportunity and freedom were away open out there. In fact, it was not as easy as reversing our palm. Moreover, time to resign was a sadder moment since it was almost my three-years experience. I treasured not only the preciousness of friendship but also valuable life-lesson. There had been ups and down, tears and laughter, cheers and jeer, victory and misery and so on. In brief, I grew up on that building, 2nd floor, South Wing. On this post, I wouldn't write a reflective story or related to retrospective note. Here is just my humble confirmation, where I am now and what I am doing recently.
Released from the cage when years spending inside of it is very pleasuring and exciting. That is what I felt aftermath of my resignation form the office. Living the days without responsibilities and duties was somehow very enjoyable. I spent the days keeping up with my personal targets. I jogged and exercised quite often. I frequently went and hang out out with friends, learned IELTS, visited my family and applied to my desirable jobs and schools. I found novelty in my life rhythm, and it felt so amazing. What I really appreciated the most was freedom. I owned the freedom to do what I love without time-constrain and restriction.
Time was fleeting. Happiness and freedom-I enjoyed previously- did not stay longer because I missed one substantial thing, 'fulfillment'. At first and foremost, I wasn't able to fill my bank account. Very sad, that I keep spending without any income. It was also a shame for a graduate to still ask money to their parents. Second, freelance was not absolutely free. Being in a freelance status gave me freedom, but not stability and temporary security I needed at the time-being. Moreover, the productivity turned to an abrupt task-trajectory. I was also intimidated when my parents call and wondered about my activities and how I got through the day. They did not mean to, it was a caring attention from them, I guess. Third, I missed the working pressures and peer zeal, from event, project, and daily tasks that follows.
Life does not always meet the expectations. It sometimes gives you no alternative options, beside opt one in-front-of-eyes-offering. As my good sister told me that life needs flexibility. Now, I understood that I should be flexible. I am very grateful that I pulled back my initial decision. It was a conscious decision after consulting with my trustworthy adviser, friend and also parent for sure. I was back now, a place where I tossed the coin. I learned again to be more patient and sincere. Forgetting about politics and drama, I will show my commitment to project a better working environment.
It is different now. Although I occupy the same place, there had been many changes; from my working status, Rectorat management, staff composition and interior arrangement at the office. I am glad that I am surrounded by supportive and credible colleagues. I hope my presence will be beneficial for others and my assistance will make things better and in order. So far, I am happy and don't mind to serve and help others. It is a pleasure to see other's happiness and accomplishment. All the more, when we are appreciated.
I hope, my happiness will accompanied by my fulfillment. I expect it will be a stepping stone to achieve my future targets. I just need to be patient and know the priority. The last one is quite hard to bid. But, I do not need to worries. My self-management will be improved and time will escort me, soon, InsyaAlloh.
AG 1549 I - BLT -YK- I don't know who has this bike. I love it, esp. the plat number.
The value of ‘hijab’ - scarf or veil covering Moslem
woman’s hair and supposedly laying toward chest- has transformed over decades. Let
us look at surrounding! We maybe
enchanted and surprised by numerous women, young and aged, wearing hijab in
different style and fashion. They do not look odd anymore, even expressed
themselves creatively and freely by experimenting of wearing hijab along with
outfits which fit. Chic, modest and stylish can be the impression.
Hijab, -originally derived from Islamic woman’s
duty for the sake of modesty and obedience to God- has turned to be a pop
culture in my society. On this post, I would not judge those who drowning on
this trend, since me myself often fascinated and hauled by this rapid innovation.
For me, it is very interesting to witness and examine the hijab transformation and
estimate the positive and negative consequences in the society.
Back to previous decades, I have seen woman wearing
hijab. The number was still limited compared to a recent year. They had various
motives regarding the commitment to wear hijab which mostly came from their
pure intention to become more modest and better as a believer. From their
appearance, they looked similar and monotonous. The way they dressed was just
faraway from the tag of fashion; rather odd and plain instead. From Syar’i
perspective, it would be justified because women discourage to deliberately
attract male’s attention since all part of their body is considered as ‘aurah’.
Recently, I witnessed the vast development on hijab
world. As a matter effect, hijab connotes differently nowadays, in which the
initial meaning of religion obligation has shifted to the artificial appendix
of fashion. The massive transformation can be seen from ‘hijaber’-person wearing
hijab- who pay more attention on how they look. Hijab now correlates with
fashion, style and industry.
Furthermore, it should thank to the contribution of globalization, mass
media and Internet in particular, which play significant roles for the revolutionary
Internet has introduced us to numerous Moslem
fashion bloggers who all of sudden become newly public figures. Let us name it
one by one: Dian Pelangi, Ria Miranda, Jenahara, Hana Tajima, Ghaida, Shea
Rasol, Jezmin Blossom, and many else who happen to be hijaber, fashion designer
and own their fashion-line. They are stylish and trend-setter among hijabers in
Indonesia and worldwide.
In Indonesia, the community, namely ‘Hijabers Community’,
emerged as a response to the hijab expansion. They gather and share the same
vision, values and interest in accommodating events related to hijab and
muslimah. ‘From fashion to Islamic studies, from hijab style to learning
Islam,..’ (Quoted from Hijaberscommunity.com)
The spill-over effect yet diffuses in swift motion. The community has
developed their branch in regional scope in immediate period. Bandung, Yogyakarta,
Surabaya, and other big cities in Indonesia claimed to have established the local
office of Hijabers Community on their neighborhood.
effect: Contravening Stereotype
Moslem woman is often labeled as an object of
oppression by Western perspective. Woman empowerment is an issue that Islam
had been struggling for. We also can not deny that in another part of the
world, woman is still victimized by male-dominated power. We are very fortunate
to live in Indonesia, the country which the majority holding moderate Islam-understanding
and woman is empowered here. Therefore, the rise of hijab fashion and Moslem
bloggers will defect the stereotype that Islam oppresses woman.
Profiling each Moslem bloggers with their
accomplishment and principle will show to the world that woman, Islam, freedom
and creativity can collide beautifully. It is a proof that Islam loves beauty.
This perception will hinder the wrong conception about Islam and highlight the
idea that Islam respects and values woman highly. Islam does not limit the
freedom of woman, but regulating them in order to protect their dignity and
humility. The massive trend of women wearing hijab in stylish and elegant fashion will
also articulate the voice that Islam is dynamic and compatible with the
modernity. Hence, it appreciates exquisiteness and modesty on the same shoes.
impact: Consumerism Alert
The positive side seems very constructive. However,
I identified one major consequence of this hijab trend, which is consumerism. A
large-scale industry grew within, from home industry to a well-known label. In
hijab industry, like any other industry, opportunities are open for courageous
and creative people. It becomes more profitable for those who owns higher
capital and conquers technology and media, let say the digital marketing. I was
alarmed then to welcome the consumerism waves which shadow thousands of Indonesian
The Moslem fashion blogger, -who happen to be
designer and entrepreneur- regularly post their style and outfits in their
blog. They also frequently launch their products, such as scarf, cloths, skirt,
and blouse. Since they already become trend-setter and public figures, the
customer will likely imitate their styles. They are inspired to dress and wear
hijab as what they see in Internet or media and copy from their favorite blogger’s style.
Subsequently, I tried to observe the customer behavior trends by
visiting several Moslem stores in my town. As I guessed previously, the display
of the cloths and scarf are mostly replicate the trend of fashion blogger. And,
predictably these sections are usually favored by many women. As a result, hijaber behavior towards shopping
is not based on necessity matters, but anchored in the line of fashion and
style. They are prone to collect stuffs which are ‘happening’ and trendy
instead of shopping what they really need. They do not mind to spend considerable
amount of money to collect stuffs from different color and designs to fulfill
their passion and interest in fashion.
This ongoing phenomenon is more than meet the eyes.
Hijab in intersection, -between religion and fashion- there must be ‘traffic
light’ and ‘traffic signs’. As long as it does not violate Islam rule, I am
proud of Moslem's woman empowerment in fashion industry. However, to sum up, let us
define necessity better and wiser. Beautifying our outward is not a sin, but it
would be much better if we could beautify our inward more and foremost.
We need a comma, to give a moment to remember and to reflect(,) to take a deep breath and value the beatific life we had. We required exclamation mark, so (to) be strong and steady(!) We started to use question mark to wonder what we have been longing for, where we heading to and with whom we will stay true and faithful(?) Then, we should be enclosed with period, to stop wandering around and finished observing what's going on and what's on her/his mind(.) Thus, from now on, let us use capitalization to Celebrate Our Own Authentic Life. Celebrate with the utmost gratefulness and joy. Do not worry, be happy, because we live with passion and purpose!