Sunday, July 31, 2011

Ridhollaahu fi Ridhol Walidain

29 Sya'ban 1432 H

entah, emboh, ga tahu, pusing, bingung, pening, plin-plan, sedih, sayang, keluarga, hati, galau, sementara, masa depan,.....

Apapun itu...

Hanya bisa berserah kepada Dzat yang Maha membolak-balikkan hati manusia. Penguasa Hari Ini, Masa Depan, dan Hari Akhir. Kepada-Mu Hamba memohon yang terbaik.

Saat ini satu yang terpikirkan, dan harus mulai belajar merelakan dan mengeliminasi egoisme dan euforia yang melenakan, yakni harus ingat bahwa "Ridho Allah terletak pada ridho orang tua."

Saat ini, mungkin cukup itu saja dulu.

Terima kasih.

Semoga Ramadhan ini semakin meneguhkan hati kita untuk senantiasa memperbaiki diri, merendahkan diri di hadapan-Nya, dan berlomba-lomba lagi untuk menjad sebaik-baik manusia. Amieen ya Rabb. Semoga kita semua mendapat kebahagiaan dan berkah-rahmat Ramadhan yang selalu kita nanti-nantikan. Amieen.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Reflection: Assertiveness on Decision

Dear universe,

I think, I should close my ears, eyes, and mouth as soon as possible, then start thinking logically, because I am still questioning : Where is their quality of assertiveness? I believe when BIG DECISION made,we will sacrifice some other aspects (can be stuff or person) that we already struggled for or hold on for a long time. I know it's very hard, but that's a big deal. We named it CHOICE and CONSEQUENCES. Some people might need more time to wait, calculate, predict, and finally logically act. But at the end, it will proof whether it is worthy decision or only playful one.

Sometimes, the ambiguity and dilemma comes within BIG DECISION. But that what life teaches us. It's all about choices, and responsibility to take a consequences when risk happens. But, the practice on the real life is not as easy as it was written. In life, most times we act in our comfort zone or safety box. We want no one hurts and no one complain. But, how long it will last? So, all we can do is (again) wait and wait for the momentum is coming. I don't know. All I know is : it's not easy.

Best regards,

Kiki Fauzia

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

LIFE and LOVE so far : mysterious

Last Sunday, I was finally back to Jogja, to continue life, study, and work. There are many stories I wanna share since I haven't update any story yet in these past few weeks. Yeah, life has been so good, dramatic, and euphoric. All I can say is life is so mysterious and surprising. I once updated my Facebook status, "life is full of surprises, so appreciate it, and be prepared!". And up til now I still absolutely agree on that sentences.

I just came back from my participation on Indonesian-Malaysia Youth Exchange Program 2011 as the delegation from East Java. During the program, I met many talented and bright youth from all over Indonesia. There are all unique and different, in terms of culture, characteristic, and appearance. I felt very blessed to know and be friend with them. I will post a separated entry about the program later on.

Life is mysterious. Who control the destiny, heart, and life-plot? I understand that God has The Invisible Hand to manage those complicated flow. That is why when thing happens, I often can't give the logical and literal reason. That's also why I enjoyed the de-facto feeling and valued the preciousness of moment. I still like to quote MLTR lyric, which is "Love will never lie". So, when it greeted me genuinely and enthusiastically, I gave the feeling chances: to fill and to be filled by the greatest sense and power of human-being. And it is indeed, to love and to be loved gives you strength and courage. So, be happy and celebrate the feeling with the most elegant and gracious way of your own.

But, I am still worried. Why? Because when life is covered by too much illusion and emotion, what I need the most is FAITH and HONESTY? I hope we can always hold those two principles. So, although many beautiful and praising words were sell and spread out to many other people. We still can be true to our self and realize that he/she is not only special but always been a part of us. No one knew better, except there is only us, and Him of course.

With a conscious mind,

Kiki Fauzia