Friday, August 27, 2010

Post K.K.N. Reflection

Too much to count, too many to tell.
I will start from my community service stories. Well, I have just officially finished my community service duty, today, after completing the responsibility to the school. Unlike the other days of our trip to Wonosari, today we rode my friend's car. The trip seemed more enjoyable and faster, especially in the hot temperature day. OMG. I still cant believe that I stayed the same. My innocent behavior should be responsible of what I have done. So, this what happened : I switched off my mobile phone due to empty battery since the night before. After praying subuh in Masjid, I felt a sleep and just woke up around 9 a.m. Then, I remembered to switch on my mobile phone. There were several messages coming, one of them was from my KKN team. Then, I was ruined in a big hurry to get ready to the campus. Oh, God, I hate myself to being that way.

I once said that too much control would make no sense. On this context, I was strongly irritated by the mechanism created by institution that has the authority to control the whole system of community service. Simply, why they bother to complicate stuff. It's maybe a typical of Indonesia procedural system. Ok, then enough to complain, and wouldn't change anything, except if they are sensible enough to reflect on what many students may have articulated in the sense of inefficiency.

They called it ‘sosiogram’. What a shit of sheet I can say. I don’t know whether it’s part of grading system or not. Frankly, I don’t like judge (rank) others by putting them unequal to what they have contributed. Maybe some friends support this kind of consideration, but I powerfully argue that this will create worst and unfair results. First reasons, as a team we are built to work together, support, and complete each others. So we mayn’t compare one to each just by concluding that one has a better contribution to others. Each one has their own portion and contribution. One may give a small but urgent yet significant input to the team. Second reasons, I believe that regardless objectivity principle we hold, we tend to act subjectively. Therefore, I vote for 'floating mass' on this situation, with such thoughtful considerations, such as a betterment for all and for the sake of long term relationship.

KKN is quite experience that thought me a lot. It was a another life phase sample that made me think, feel, react, reflect, then realize that I am a perfect human blessed with imperfect traits. When we struggled in a team, we mostly deal with frictions within our own consciousness, interpersonal relations and conflicting motion of thoughts with others. Then, after all, I knew myself better and the way others think and react. Too many to count, and, too many times we missed the moment to be touched, to be heard, to be hold on. We may easily forgot that basically we are just the same. If we can listen more, do more, involve more, and share more, we may miscalculate the days we spent compared with satisfaction and preciousness others may feel. When I realized that way, I want to rotate the time and change the scenario so that I won't 'amoeba-ing' quite often.

UNIT 95 -my KKN team- in front of Lobi HI, Fisipol UGM, 2010

It's ashamed if we just know the name, never asked how they feel, even seldom thank to their deeds. We also couldn't blame the system we committed, if that really happened. It was just too pity for me if this togetherness didn't reach out deep down inside our heart. I mean, I wouldn't exaggerate things, but we really need to value that we are not a robotic creature. Every act has tendency, motivations, and intentions. Then, we have to build our sense of sympathy and empathy. Maybe it's too easy to say, but hardly to understand and practice. Simply I wanna say : don't hurt others, don't backstabbing others, and don't underestimate others. It's better to appreciate others, and give a positive support to their deeds.

I'm glad to have shared and experienced this two months of community service together with my teammate. I really appreciated that we have tried to contribute our best. When I looked upon them, there were many memories drawn inside my brain-disk, and locked tidily in my heart. Because every jokes created happiness. Every smiles cured bad days. Every success generated optimism. Every appreciation invented confidence. Every shared-stories established trust. Every togetherness built understanding. And loving will grow through bad and good days. And time will show who true friend are.

On the other hands, I strongly oppose any forms of humiliation. In whatever intentions it may take, I rather withdrawing myself and choose 'mute' mode. Maybe, it's not the best way to react. But I will not worsen the situation by adding some opinion and random info. Because every humiliation will cause wound and big hole in other heart. Because we never know yet beyond their appearance, actions and reactions, what their real conditions, motivations, and intentions are. Haha. It's getting more absurd and I started mumbling randomly.

Afterward, I just wanted to sincere thank and sorry to all my friends during this two months. It's very delighted to work with you. I was very honored to spend minutes, hours, days, and months with you who are indeed very good people, very good students. Thank you.

Cheers, for all the best,

Kiki Fauzia

"Seorang terpelajar harus berlaku adil sudah sejak dalam pikiran, apalagi dalam perbuatan," - Pramoedya Ananta Toer

Saturday, August 14, 2010


Sebaik-baik penjagaan merupakan bentuk kasih sayang yang membuat langgeng dan panjang umur. Rawat dan jangan siakan barang dan/atau kepemilikan Anda sebelum datang rasa penyesalan karena telah terciderai atau lenyap. (Kiki Fauzia, 2010)

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Dauntlessly Inspiring Poster

I am in the middle of searching inspirations for poster substance about globalization. This task is one of my project in KKN, will be given to SMA 1 Wonosari, my subunit. When I started googling example of poster on globalization. Surprisingly, I found many inspiring yet interesting poster. Herewith I uploaded the pictures and perfectly said quotation on it.

I like the represented symbols in the universe pictured on poster above. More impressively written as COEXIST, represent faith, religion, and concept, such as Islam, peace, sex, Jewish, Yin-Yang, and Cristianity.

I like the colorful appearance and fully agree with the quote from Dante : "The hottest places in hell are reserved for those who, in times of great of moral crisis, maintain their neutrality."

First, they ignore you. Second, they laugh at you. Then they fight you. Then, you win.

The saying on the poster was positely awe-motivating. I really wondered how does it feels to be that way??

Basically everybody DOES. To enjoy life, we dont need to be an expertise to do such a thing.

What do you think guys? Are these awesome?

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Birthday Boy

10 Agustus 1990 s.d. 2010

Oh My God, you turn 20 this year!
You are OLD my brother. LoL :)

Hope you have a blessed birthday.
Keep your faith and passions to reach out your dreams.
Be good and be humble.
Semoga menjadi pribadi yang semakin soleh dan tangguh.
Amiien ya Rabb!

Pemaknaan :

Waktu memberikan kesaksian nyata bahwa perubahan adalah keniscayaan yang tidak bisa ditolak. Mengiringi dua puluh tahun perjalananmu sampai detik ini adalah suatu keajaiban Tuhan yang luar biasa. Perubahan itu nyata dan semoga bergerak ke arah kebaikan yang membaikkan sesama. Masih belum sadar bahwa nominasi angka itu menjustifikasi bahwa perjalanan ini telah panjang, namun perjuanganmu di depan masih lebih panjang lagi. Semangat ! :)

Monday, August 9, 2010

My Absence and Prescence

..everyone has their own story and destiny..
..the happiest person is one who's always feeling grateful..

Hi August, I am happy for you. And as I stated above I should be grateful for everything I have. No complain for life and no jealousity for others. We can be happier if we can share more, and be POSITIVE in thinking and feeling. Then, it will suddenly ease our bad feelings and sadness. Oh God, I am still too far from You. Literally, I feel a half empty because of imbalance between my needs and efforts. I urge more vertical connection with God, but in action I am 'zero'. Ramadhan will be coming on these upcoming days and it would be the best moment to heal my soul and improve my spiritual connection with The One.

Let's talk about my absence and my presence during the previous month. I have been disapeared from the blogging world for quite time. The month of July was occupied by KKN duties. It's time for serving community as it supposed to be. This is the time of the year when I have to take a part in action as implementation of three principle of university besides education and research, which is community service.

Community Service: We Never Work Alone
That how it works in KKN. We never work alone since we are teamed up with other students. Our unit consists of thirty students from various departments and faculties. Mostly are from my own department, International Relations. The rests are from the faculty of Biology, Philosophy, Psychology, Economics and Business, Math and Natural Sciences, Agricultural Technology, and Engineering. One unit are divided in to six subunit which means that we have five students in each subunit. I myself are part of subunit "SMA 1 Wonosari", accompanied by friends from three different departments, Psychology, Accounting, and Computer Sciences.

Lesson I learned and observed during KKN:
- Inefficiency and lack of integrity of Institute for Research and Community Service ( I will write later focus on this topic)
- One should be aware of their own portion and position. Time for lead or follow.
- Obey the mechanism and shared-agreement.
- Respect and acknowledge others since we never work alone.
- Appreciaton is worth-value. Dont hurt others by saying direct harsh words.
- Three magic words : thanks, sorry, and please.
- Obvious things which I dont like :
Talk behind one's back, gossipings (preffered called 'ghibah'). These things are very normal and obvious which I was really uncomfortable deal with. Listening these kind of things just made me sick. But what most pathetic is why is always fun and entertaining?
- Get much involved in activities and projects. Engage with many peoples. It's not easy, but one try is worth-doing and deserves an appreciation.
- Controlling is somehow an effective way to organize things in order. But too much control would make no senses.
- The art of manipulating.
- Be yourself and try to understand others.
- Playing safe is being on the mainstream track. Flexibility on various situation is very important.
- More qualified time we shared = more we value the prescence of others = more emotional and personal bonds tighted up.
- Reducing ego and stubborness is a must list to do.
- Boys likes gossips as well (a bit shocked).
- Girls are vulnerably conflicting in 'cold war', while boys are struggling on their world war.
- ....
- would be more added

Just stay tuned :)

Cheers, Kiki